Know God through His Son Jesus and the power of the Holy Spirit

1 Peter 1:3-6
3 Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, which according to his abundant mercy hath begotten us again unto a lively hope by the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead, 4 To an inheritance incorruptible, and undefiled, and that fadeth not away, reserved in heaven for you, 5 Who are kept by the power of God through faith unto salvation ready to be revealed in the last time. 6 Wherein ye greatly rejoice, though now for a season, if need be, ye are in heaviness through manifold temptations:

Are you tired of yearning and fighting and your one desire is to run to God? Have you fallen in love with Jesus who died for your sins and wants to give you a new life? Then what are you waiting for? Tell Him! Then tell someone you know to be a Christian so they can help you learn how to grow with the Holy Spirit and walk and be fed as one who is newly born again. Quickly find a Bible believing church so you can be baptized. Listening to https://ttb.org/programs/the-5-year-study every day is great or you can find another way to read and learn from the Bible daily.
OK, so someone else reading this is not ready to turn to God today, but you are interested. You'll need to read the Bible and receive teaching on the Bible. https://ttb.org/programs/the-5-year-study is a great place to start or attending Sunday and/or Wednesday services at a Bible believing church. But don't delay. Actively seek God each day and may you find Him before it is too late.